Clay's Journal

Dumb- Nirvana

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 03:52:22 GMT

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy [x3]

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover

Have a hangover [x3]

Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
My day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy [x3]

I think I'm dumb [x12]

Fuck SBC

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 18:24:17 GMT

yeah so sbc screwed up my internet and they havent fixed it so i have had to check emails and crap on friends computers which is kind of a hastle for me because then i have a shit ton of emails to check so yeah other than that life has been pretty sweet

Summertime Blues

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 22:04:50 GMT

Well, I'm a-gonna raise a fuss,
I'm a-gonna raise a holler
About a-workin' all summer
Just to try to earn a dollar
But every time I call my baby
Try'na get a date
My boss says, "No dice, son,
You gotta work a-late."
Sometimes I wonder what I'm a-gonna do
There ain't no cure for this summertime blues

Well, my mom 'n' poppa told me,
"Son, you gotta earn some money
If you wanna use the car
To go ridin' next Sunday."
Well, I didn't go to work,
Told the boss I was sick -
"Now you can't use the car
'Cos you didn't work a lick!"
Sometimes I wonder what I'm a-gonna do
There ain't no cure for this summertime blues

Well, I'm gonna take two weeks,
Gonna have a fine vacation,
I'm gonna take my problem
To the United Nations.
Well, I called my congress man
and he said - quote -,
"I'd like to help ya son
But ya're too young to vote"
Sometimes I wonder what I'm a-gonna do
There ain't no cure for this summertime blues

High Hopes

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:27:40 GMT

Next time your found, with your chin on the ground
There a lot to be learned, so look around

Just what makes that little old ant
Think hell move that rubber tree plant
Anyone knows an ant, cant
Move a rubber tree plant

But hes got high hopes, hes got high hopes
Hes got high apple pie, in the sky hopes

So any time your gettin low
stead of lettin go
Just remember that ant
Oops there goes another rubber tree plant

When troubles call, and your backs to the wall
There a lot to be learned, that wall could fall

Once there was a silly old ram
Thought hed punch a hole in a dam
No one could make that ram, scram
He kept buttin that dam

cause he had high hopes, he had high hopes
He had high apple pie, in the sky hopes

So any time your feelin bad
stead of feelin sad
Just remember that ram
Oops there goes a billion kilowatt dam

All problems just a toy balloon
Theyll be bursted soon
Theyre just bound to go pop
Oops there goes another problem kerplop

Basketball tourney

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 19:00:22 GMT

yeah so this weekend meaning today and tomorrow at north muskegon high school i got some games im playing like earlier today we barely lost because we fell apart at the end of the game....yeah so we got a game at five today but it will probably be earlier like maybe a half hour cuz thats when the teams are suppose to show up.......yeah then tomorrow i have games at 10am, 2pm and 5pm thats only if anyone is interested.......i'll mostlikely post how it all goes after the tourney is over......

More Poems

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 14:02:52 GMT

A lost friend

Losing a friend is never easy
Losing them to cancer
Because of the doctors mistake
Is horrifying
I can remember her voice calm and beautiful
I can fell her warm and caring touch
I can smell her scent
I can see her glasses
And that large smile of hers
Knowing she is in a better place
Makes me feel better
But that she had to die
Still angers me to this day

A Quiet Place

Some where that no one will find
A place no one can ruin
A place that no one can infiltrate
Or invade
It could be in the woodlands
Or near a murky swamp
In a grassy field
Or up in the mountains
A place to think
About what I’ve done
Or what I’m going to do
Peaceful and tranquil
Full of beauty
A place to be proud of
A quiet place

Old Age

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 03:30:54 GMT

One more day to complete my service
One more high to decay my nevous
Wondering how I'm gonna find a way
It's over

One more day to complete my service
One more time here to fade my servant
Wondering how I'm gonna find a way
Over

She seen through me and mine
And I know a later time
We could make it with you
We're the same

Old age

One more day to complain, my servant
One more doubt here to find a servant
Wondering how I'm gonna find
It's over

Wondering how I'm here date my cover
One more doubt here to save my never
Wondering how I'm gonna find a way
It's over

She seemed true me and mine
And I know a later time
We and we're you to you
Leave the soul

Old age

Just you need and read you free
Hmmm
And knew
You read
You flew
Ooo
Hmmmmm

One more day to complete my circuit
One more high here to find my nervous
Someday I'm gonna find a way
It's over

One more doubt here to claim my supper
I can have anything you wanted
Wondering how I'm gonna find a way
It's over

He seemed to read minds
And I know we're out of time
Breathe away here with you
Dream the same on the dew
Breathe the same on her
Breathe to moan on a man
Breathe and shame on you
He's late

Old age

More Poems

Sun, 28 May 2006 04:24:06 GMT

More Poems

Sun, 21 May 2006 04:12:30 GMT

these are another three poems that i wrote for my english class so i hope that you all like them or at least read them

Peace

Peace
Unites all
Loving everyone
Caring for what ever
Passive
Knowledge
Power
Strength
Hope
Faith
All involve and are included in peace

Ouside

Family reunions make me feel like an outsider
I’m the youngest of about 14 cousins
Everyone’s in college or graduated from college
So most have cool stories about their life
And I’m just stuck in high school

I’m never treated different
Because everyone’s experienced what I have
In some way, shape or form
So I’ll never be the first to do anything
But it doesn’t mean I won’t do it anyways

There’s an upside to it
I can learn from their experiences
And do the correct thing if they’ve done wrong
Although the wrong thing seems like more fun sometimes

Teenage Years

They say these are the best years of our lives
Well I sure hope not
They maybe the most fun
But I don’t know about the best
I would say this is the voyage
On the way to finding out who we are
All the awkward fumbling the first time you try something new
Never knowing exactly what to do
Learning our limits
And the limits of others
Along with our morals
Finding out what you want to be
And how I’m going to get there
It’s all a teenagers voyage to finding themselves

Poems

Tue, 16 May 2006 01:54:41 GMT

so here i go this will be my first entry with my poetry.....yeah well this is some stuff that i wrote for school and i think it would be a good starting point for me putting this stuff on the internet..
here we go these are the first two i'll put out and see what every one thinks...cuz im sure i have better stuff....

Personification

The bullet spoke today
Telling a tale
Of struggle
Of sorrow
Self-loathing
Self-hatred
A desire to end
What started at birth
A bullet spoke the truth
As it pierces his temple

Advice

People ask for it all the time
But you don’t know what to say
Do I tell them what they want to hear
Or what they should really know
One will make them feel good for a while
The other will break them down
But once you tell them its there choice
Do they take the advice
Or do they tread there own path
Either way you’re a key factor in the decision
But not the outcome
It could work out
Or fall on its face
Either way
It’s just advice

Sat, 13 May 2006 03:45:15 GMT

yeah so this week was pretty cool except for my muffler breaking on my car and my parents fixing it sometime.....yeah just got home from kadys we watched apocolypse now which is an awesome war movie....yeah so i have this thing that im caught up on i cant decide if i want to post my poetry that i right on the ole livejournal so i would like to know your imput about things.....yeah so in other words tell me yay or nay to the whole poetry thing

Tue, 02 May 2006 01:17:33 GMT

so i have been doing good since the last entry and i have been have fun at work and suprisingly at school and fun with friends is just common so yeah but i have had this song stuck in my head for a month at least and the week before my birthday i realized what the song was and who it was by and i love it so much that im gonna post the lyrics:
Jerry Was A Race Car Driver

Jerry was a racecar driver,
and he drove so god-damn fast.
He never did win no checkered flag,
but he never did come in last.

Jerry was a racecar driver,
he'd say "el solo number one."
With a bocephus sticker on his 442
he'd lighten up just for fun.

Captain Pierce was a fireman.
Richmond engine #3,
I'd be a wealthy man
when I get a dime for all the things that man
had taught to me.

Captain Pierce was a strong man.
Strong as any man alive.
He got stuck in his crawl that they
made him retire at the age of 65.

Jerry was a racecar driver.
22 years old.
Had one to many cold beers one night,
wrapped himself around a telephone pole.

Happy Birthday To William Shakespeare!!!oh and me too

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 00:44:31 GMT

yeah so today was my birthday and thanks to everyone who said happy b-day and yeah my uncle and grandma came over and so did kady and that was really really nice of her to do.....so my presents are the three sweet Nirvana cd's kady burned for me and then this book on John Lennon and then this book about Nirvana so that was awesome plus my parents got me an Ipod video a while ago and that was a b-day gift so today was awesome hope everyone had a good day on my birthday.....haha yeah

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 02:07:14 GMT

so this has already been a fun weekend leading up to my birthday......yeah friday was fun....got to talk to people and work was kinda draggin till we had like no one there so we stood around and talked.....then i went to steves and played some bball....today i woke got home then watched some of walk the line(which is a great movie so far) before work then i went to work with folsom prison blues stuck in my head and i missed a good friend o'mine at work but obla de obla da life goes on brra lala how the life goes on....yeah so it was nice of kady and sam and brendan to go to the movies cuz it was kinda boring today.....so inlight of watching walk the line im gonna put up the lyrics to folsom prison blues.......here we go:
Folsom Prison Blues:
I hear the train a comin'
It's rolling round the bend
And I ain't seen the sunshine since I don't know when,
I'm stuck in Folsom prison, and time keeps draggin' on
But that train keeps a rollin' on down to San Antone..
When I was just a baby my mama told me. Son,
Always be a good boy, don't ever play with guns.
But I shot a man in Reno just to watch him die
When I hear that whistle blowing, I hang my head and cry..

I bet there's rich folks eating in a fancy dining car
They're probably drinkin' coffee and smoking big cigars.
Well I know I had it coming, I know I can't be free
But those people keep a movin'
And that's what tortures me...

Well if they freed me from this prison,
If that railroad train was mine
I bet I'd move it on a little farther down the line
Far from Folsom prison, that's where I want to stay
And I'd let that lonesome whistle blow my blues away.....

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 00:43:52 GMT

yeah so last weekend end was easter week end i had a lot of fun with family and kady and i hung out so that was great aswell and monday i slept from 7:15pm till 5:40am so that was awesome.....today i went to the play at the PAC great job guys and gals i enjoyed it a lot.....so sunday is my birthday and this year is the blah year cuz im turning 17 so theres no huge milestone....im sure it will be a great one though....so i just realized tomorrow is 4/20 and that means that a few hundred kids wont be at school and if they are then their probably high haha yeah i just estimated that theres that many pot heads at our school and i wanna go on record that i am not a pothead or drunk cuz i know a few people my think that when they see me although i dont know its usually when i meet people and im tired that they think pothead....yeah well that was a little odd but whatever

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 20:07:49 GMT

yeah spring break was a blast we spent 13 days in florida even though it was in naples which apparently shuts down at 9 o'clock at night........yeah so down there i played some bball and golfed i swam a lot and went in the hot tub and stuff.......oh yeah we got to drive around in a porche which was awesome.........yeah i had a good time there but i did miss my friends at home.....then we had a minor set back at O'Hara airport cuz the people in ft. Lauderdale sent our luggage out under the wrong name and sent it to people in grand rapids so i didnt get my stuff till today

SPRING BREAK!!!!

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 23:55:03 GMT

yeah so today i went to the mall and got some cloths for spring break then i got home and called kady and my mom just started packing all my stuff which is cool and all but it's not like im a 4 year old or anything but whatever yeah so seems like if your leaving grand haven your either going to colorado or florida but thats only people i know that have told me where they are going.....so yeah spring break should be fun i wont update till forever from now but thats all fine and dandy.....hope everyone has a great spring break

Cold Turkey

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 21:03:59 GMT

so i have been in love with john lennon since i was a little kid and i relate to pretty much all of his songs and i love this one i also think i would be a cool bumper sticker or t-shirt or poster or something of the sort anyways here are the lyrics
COLD TURKEY
Temperature's rising
Fever is high
Can't see no future
Can't see no sky

My feet are so heavy
So is my head
I wish I was a baby
I wish I was dead

Cold turkey has got me on the run

My body is aching
Goose-pimple bone
Can't see no body
Leave me alone

My eyes are wide open
Can't get to sleep
One thing I'm sure of
I'm in at the deep freeze

Cold turkey has got me on the run

Cold turkey has got me on the run

Thirty-six hours
Rolling in pain
Praying to someone
Free me again

Oh I'll be a good boy
Please make me well
I promise you anything
Get me out of this hell

Cold turkey has got me on the run
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 02:36:53 GMT

yeah so my last entry was a little umm gloomy but today was fun i got home and worked on my history project then kady came over and we went to little cezars and got a pizza but she couldnt find my house and so on the way home i had to drive so we didnt get lost......her car is small but non the less cool so yeah whatever when we got here we talked and she got to meet my pets my dog likes her.......alot.......so anyways we had fun hanging out so yeah that was my day it was pretty sweet

yeah this is how i view myself which is fucked up and its no ones fault its just me

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 03:44:43 GMT

Yeah these are the lyrics to the song Creep by Radiohead and yeah sorry if this doesnt explain a thing

When you were before, couldn't look in your eye
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so FUCKIN' special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control
I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice, when I'm not around
You're so FUCKIN' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here, ohhh ohhhh

She's running out....
She's running out, she's run, run, run, run....run....

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so FUCKIN' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 04:34:26 GMT

damn myself ugh i dont know why i torture myself the way i do....sometimes actually most the time i let me get in my way......with everything......but what can i do....so yeah tomorrow night forbid nothing bad happening im gonna be ballin it up at a friends thats always fun....kris and i last night called kady and left her a 45 minute message oh yeah and we left 3 messages befor that that were about 15-20 min so yeah if we know you cell # beware hahaha yeah well that was a fun waste of your reading abilities....maybe i should start putting my poetry on this thing yeah thats right i write poetry so let the mocking comense

De Do Do Do Do, De Da Da Da Da (yeah this is for shits and giggles)

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 03:29:23 GMT

Don't think me unkind
Words are hard to find
The only cheques I've left unsigned
>From the banks of chaos in my mind
And when their eloquence escapes me
Their logic ties me up and rapes me

De do do do, de da da da
Is all I want to say to you
De do do do, de da da da
Their innocence will pull me through
De do do do, de da da da
Is all I want to say to you
De do do do, de da da da
They're meaningless and all that's true

Poets, priests and poiticians
Have words to thank for their positions
Words that scream for your submission
And no one's jamming their transmission
'Cos when their eloquence escapes you
Their logic ties you up and rapes you

De do do do, de da da da
Is all I want to say to you
De do do do, de da da da
Their innocence will pull me through
De do do do, de da da da
Is all I want to say to you
De do do do, de da da da
They're meaningless and all that's true

[De do do do, de da da da
Is all I want to say to you
De do do do, de da da da
Their innocence will pull me through
De do do do, de da da da
Is all I want to say to you
De do do do, de da da da
They're meaningless and all that's true]

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 17:28:50 GMT

yeah so i've been sick since wednsday and the only thing thats kept me awake and not feeling horribly sick is college basketball cuz after all it is march madness and so from oh noon till about midnight its been non stop bball and i usually stop watching about 8:30 cuz i am beyond tired.....i heard from friends that lunch kinda sucked without me there thats cool that i have that impact on lunch cuz when i think lunch i tend to think well food yeah but i guess we do have our fare share of discussion at lunch but oh well.......im syked to finally get out of the house when i go to work tomorrow and school monday eventhough i may still feel under the weather as long as im better than yesterday i'll be happy....im thinkin alissa was right that i might have a fever b/c i was wraped in 3 blankets last night and i felt like it was freezing even as im typing im sweating and typing does not take enough energy to make you sweat so yeah im pretty sure its a fever....oh if i do work it's gonna be tomorrow and monday so unless you want the possibility of getting a cold dont see a movie....yeah thats all i got fun stuff

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 15:23:27 GMT

so yeah i felt like shit last night when i went to bed woke up felt the same decided what the hell i'll tough it out but i ended up just heading home after math and so now im just doing homework and resting.......hope everyone else had a better day than i did......oh yeah and steve holden i guess you forgot to tell me that i fuck own and hahaha oh kady i almost for got about chuck fuck and marry haha oh fun stuff.....yeah well tomorrow is a new day and hopefully i will be at school b/c my friends are fun and some of my classes are too

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 01:43:18 GMT

yeah so i took this test that i found in brendans LJ that sam told me about and it turns out i prefer african americans to european americans which i can tell is true but its only slight and i know i dont hate both a lot so its slight in a good way if that made any sense........yeah it also said i like the red sox over the yankees which is also true and also slight so yeah this thing is dead on track.....i like natural things moderatly over manufactured things yeah and then i quit because i read on and saw that it said they have 100 different kind of tests and i dont have that kind of time so it was fun and all